Shortly after I started my fitness journey I prayed and God told me that I should share my journey with others. I remember reaching out to my wife with tears in my eyes because the thought of showing my body to the world terrified me.
I've been ashamed of a lot of things in life- ashamed of my body, ashamed of being First Nations, ashamed of being a Christian. Being ashamed of who I am has meant that I've tried to live my whole life in a way that shines a light onto others, but I feel like God is calling me to be the light and the only was I can do that is to get rid of the sickness of people pleasing so I can find rest in my true identity as a son of God. Being clothed in my new identity means I don't have to fit the mold, but in freedom I can choose the very best that life has for me.
Trying to rid myself of the shame that has controlled my life for so long is a daily struggle, but pictures like this tell me I'm winning the fight. To be honest I've never felt more at peace in my entire life. Truthfully I would rather be morbidly obese and feel the way I do now than be 200 pounds lighter and feel as ashamed as I've felt my entire life. Here's a few thoughts that helped me when I started this crazy journey:
"Shame is an epidemic in our culture, it affects the way we're parenting, the way we're working, the way we're looking at each other. Shame is highly, highly correlated with addiction, depression, violence, aggression, bullying, suicide, eating disorders. The two biggest tracks that shame has — "I'm never good enough" — & "who do you think you are?" If we're going to find our way back to each other, vulnerability is going to be that path. If we're going to find our way back to each other, we also have to understand and know empathy, because empathy's the antidote to shame. The two most powerful words when we're in struggle: me too. Vulnerability is not weakness. Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change." - @brenebrown http://ow.ly/JttS309eIam
I think it's time we all get rid of the shame in our lives and embrace the truest form of fitness --- self love. #pellygetsfit #powerofvulnerability #noshame #3months