As Ryan drove me to the airport this morning we discussed the pain and suffering of our family and friends and how it is sometimes hard to understand why sometimes God doesn't manifest himself more clearly, why His presence and love and direction isn't more recognizable in the lives of those who are struggling. The pain of those I love sometimes seems crushing and overwhelming to me. And while as I look back on the trials of my life I am truly grateful for them because of all I have learned and I recognize them as some of my greatest blessings so I can't wish away the trials of others, I do wish sometimes that life didn't have to be so hard.
And then I saw this view. It is a overcast day, the sky is dark, it is rainy. As we ascended we passed through thick clouds, a total white-out, for quite a while. Going through the clouds there was intense pressure. I am not usually bothered by pressure changes during flights. But this made me feel terrible. I was already nauseated from a migraine and the pressure just made everything worse. But then we rose above the clouds and the view was breathtaking - totally glorious. And this scripture came quickly to mind.
8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.
9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:
11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.
While I don't understand why life has to be so crushingly hard, and why God is not always more abundantly present, I do trust Him. He knows the beginning from the end, He knows what He wants us to become. And He knows what it takes for us to get there. And so I will praise His name forever and be grateful for His perfect love, His complete wisdom, and His faith in me and all those I care about.